My sister and brother... ...

再一次的， 我被我的妹妹气的无话可说，再一次的，我被气的想哭。 对自己的责任，虽然不尽完善，但也问心无愧。每倘半小时的车程，虽说不远，但也不近；每次我都毫无怨言，像个司机一样的接送。我不期望对等的回报，不期望你们的感激，原来，这不只是期望，根本是奢望！妹妹的态度，真的烂到无可救药！回到家了，对我不满，就说下次不要我载！结果呢？等不到巴士时，一个电话，我就必须马上从睡眠中清醒，像一条狗那样爬起来载你！就因为你的一通电话！进生活营？佛教营？你就不要再参加了！浪费金钱，浪费车油，浪费我的时间！既然学不到东西那就不要再进了！每一次每一次每一次！都夸下海口说不要我载！结果呢？我笨的像猪一样！每次都任劳任怨！我不想跟你计较，因为你是我妹！但是你知不知道你的话让我很难受！有时候从你口中出来的东西很伤人你懂吗？

Christmas Gift that i want the most~

For this year, the Christmas gift that i want the most is the bear bear that i saw at a shop, and the second, is a ring~ a single ring~ i like the ring that appear at the movie of 放羊的星星。 As the ring is special for single.. hehe~ i do like and enjoy the single status very much... ^^

Wonder

Human mind will always change day by day, just like me... I'm always believe that I'll remain single forever in my life. I don't trust that will be a man that I'll fall in love to. I believe i can handle my single in the future, i believe that will be enough once my family beside me. But I'm wrong! Definitely wrong! Since I came to Kampar, there are lot of things I had learn... But those things touch my heart deeply is those 'Love', 'Puppy Love'... ...

Sometimes, when I'm looking at those couples, I'm feel lonely... However, human is always contradictorily. Although I'm admire at those who having their 'Love' beside them, but I'm scaring for the changing in my life... Before this, there is a chance for me to have a puppy love with a boy, but I give up... Somebody ask me why? Why? I also don't know... I don't know what i want exactly in Love. What should be contain in love? What is love?

Anomie

前阵子生病了，痛苦，孤独，无助。。。 回到家中，有家人的照顾，关怀让我倍感温暖。康复之后，居然让我迷失了方向。 突然间的情绪失控，突然间的失落，突然间的害怕， 让我痛苦，无助，难受；身边的人询问原因，‘为什么’？ 我不懂！我真的不晓得！为什么？我害怕改变，不想离开家。 生病之后让我明白家的温暖，家的好。期间，我不想与人交谈，不想跟朋友交流，只想把自己关在一边。。。 我很怕，怕自己就这么陷下去。。。 我不想让自己站不起来~ 幸好，有家人和朋友的开解，让我走了出来。低潮期。。。 让我学会了些。。。 这世上，没有什么是走不出去的，只有要不要。天大的事，都没什么了不起的；再坏的事都会过去的。。。 在未来的路上，我要加油！我不要只会接受恩惠，更加要懂得付出。