Pain

I felt pain not physically but psychologically. I thought i had run out from all of that, but i'm didn't? I have nothing to say, I am who I am. I treat friends with fully heart, but i get hurt again and again. I kept give up again and again when i felt tired and speechless. I thought i had give up enough about that, i started do not care who those who hurt me. Well, it seem not working, it just make me weak when things happen. I won't upset, it's your choice i don't blame, may be it's my problems as no one perfect right? It's my challenges to overcome it.

However, i starting feel disappoint. May be the mistake that i done was got to know you all. I'm tired with this, I had quit. In a peaceful way, may be this is only my thought. I'm not going to judge anything about your gang and your works. So please, stop related those stuff with me anymore! I'm tired and I had quit. Again, I starting feel regret with the heart that i had spent. Since, i can't take it back but i learnt something. No more truly talk, no more deep talk and no more real friendship if you wish?

I apologies if I hurt you but please don't do anything behind me. Face to me, not to my friends not to my family, but me. I prefer that.

p/s: Trust is not easy to build, it involved a lot of challenges and lies.

I'm sorry~~

I'm really really need to say sorry to my legs~~ I'm sorry for didn't take good care of you~~ How lucky am i?? wuwuwu~~ By the way, for my purse as well~~ Spend RM200+ for a "specialist"~~ Luckily, clever enough i'm back to hometown's clinic~ Same medicine get, better treatment however, it just cost me RM40+~ What the... =( How expensive is the name of "specialist"~~

  my pity leg~~  =(

ok, doctor did mentioned just warm water will do however, i really like the feeling of bacteria keeling by "hot" warm water... therefore, one of my leg comes red after the procedure~~ wahaha~~

流年不利

现在的我只想找个宣泄的管道，好好大哭一场、睡个好觉！在旧病复发的情况下已经够让我觉得好不沮丧了，还要面对一些只会吃却帮不上忙的人真的让人很气很气！进入到久违的房间却处处都是灰尘的时候更是只想把房间拆了！还要一进门就被只小强吓到，到处喷蚊油，把地板弄的油不拉几整个房间充满那杀虫剂的味道~~ 还有一堆不是自己的东西在哪里生灰尘！天啊！杀了我吧~~把个眼镜推到头顶方便刷牙，却掉下弄的全是牙膏！神啊！

原本只想发个帖吐完出来就没事，谁知道网线中断！好吧，发个信息给那机不离手的弟弟~ 天晓得，他就是没看到、没接到我的电话、信息！真的真的好想大哭一场！今年走的是什么狗屎运？！我真的真的好想大哭！心中一堆不满、怨气无处宣泄！！苦呀！

不要问我为什么、不要问我怎么样、我不知道！我只想把看不顺眼的统统都给拆了、丢了！明天！看完医生之后，我才不管什么时候的纪念册、什么时候的“心血来潮”！全丢了！！

真的是！@#￥%……&*）（*&……%￥！@#￥%……&*（）#￥%……&*（

沙漠玫瑰+二十岁的前症

   曾经读过那么形容女人的一句话，沙漠玫瑰~ 就字面上的意思，坚强、孤傲、逆境生存、当然，带刺儿~ 到目前为止依然希望自己具备沙漠玫瑰的特质。即使如此，造物者的仁慈还是把人类归为群居一族~ 生活上的挑战就是磨练，让我往沙漠玫瑰前进~

生活上还是随性点来得好，没回家的周末反而起了个大早，跑个步~ 一天的行程展开？拜托一个学生有什么行程？不就一堆的paper~ 天知道大学的生涯是个什么的样~

即使偶尔还是不能自己的在期望另一半的存在，但好在期望之后一片平静。年龄上的成长真的可以让人改变很多... 很多东西不再执着，随缘就好~ 哈哈~




接着即将到访的二十岁，发现自己在很多方面都有了不少的改变~ 从以前对穿着的不在乎、外貌的无所谓、保养的漠视； 到今天稍微的注意、开始关心的保养护肤以及近来对香水的在乎~ 好吧~ Body Shop 的 Dream 把我征服了，考虑（小会儿后）毅然把它带回了~ God knows what i think~~ 哈！

也许不久的将来得必须有份不错的工作在等我才行！当然，

前提： 我得要有不错的“厕纸” 才行！