Future~~

For a student, spm is the end of secondary and the start of the future~ We have to think about ourself, our future and all~ many things we have to decide and plan to promise our future... I'm always taught i'm independence, but actually i didn't at all... There're many little things i can't decided at all~ i'm confuce with it~ haiz~ really don't know what i want exactly~ others and family can give you suggestins. But the future is fix by ourself decission~~

We are facing some challenge every day~ if you want to get somethings, then you must sacrifices somethings~At the last, we have to make decision too~ just late or early~

曾经~~

曾经，有人问过我，你身边的朋友都有男朋友了，你羡慕吗？会不会有冲动也想要个男朋友？我笑笑，不语。

其实，我羡慕，也有过想要男朋友的念头。所谓人云亦云不过如此。缘分如果这么容易就能得到的话。那不就显得缘分不在可贵了吗？这个年纪的我不懂得什么叫感情，对很多事情都还是处于陌生境界，我拿什么来说感情，说爱情呢？

古人一句话，不经一事不长一智。是很贴切的一句。经过某些事，我可以更加确定的告诉自己，很多事情等到时机成熟时自然的就会到来，不须羡慕，不须人云亦云。

Love?

A week let me learn many things. Sometimes, when we admire to a thing, we will aspire to the same thing directly. Truck with someone...love is different with like. I like someone, but didn't mean that we should truck, but love, is that hope to live with each other. There are big different between this two things. Never confuse with it， this is for our own good... aren't it?

4/10/09

That's a little change on that day~~~ Although still not very confirm... but i hope i can make it as longer as i can~~ 5 more weeks, exam coming soon... God bless me...T0T

The End...

End of the holidays... very sad... when I'm thinking back, that's nothing i do in this holidays... hehe... End of the holidays, start of the war again and again... Haiz... That's another that make me feel better is the tourism after the exam... T0T

The last three month for my study live in secondary~~

There just three more month for my secondary study live~~ T.T So fast, 5 years past already... Many thing i had learn at this 5 years. Hehe... All of us are fighting. for what ? I think most probably is for our future... Parents remind you day and day, teacher remind you day and day... This is the last chance for you to change up your live. If you are lazy, your live will go like that... bye bye... If your are hard working now, then I'll say congratulations for you! you can care for your future... Heiz... yes, you are right, there are just three month... endure it! hehe... Looking for future... Haiz... nothing i can say lah... future... so far? No... Near? No... wait wait and wait... for the result ...

~Enough~

Although I'm miss them every day, but they won't come back anymore. Gone, will not come back~ I can't stop to miss them at this month~ Every day and every night. Every time, my tear will come with the miss. Can't i stop to miss them? I think cannot. Because they are my dearest uncle and grandma. I can't denial that, some of my friends can help me to forget the sad for a while, but i don't want... Not because this is my privacy... I'm care about what will they think about me.

When i'm sad, there is a place that only i will stay~ My room~ hehe~ Safety at there... No disturbs... No noise... just alone... The feel was great! I like that~ may be i'll call a friend asking he or she beside me... That is enough... Need not too much... That is enough...

Success...

                 A title of my essay this week. Success, is not a easy word for me. There are much meaning for me. Success of a mother, she can know all the things of her family, she can keep her family's health. Success of a teacher is not he or herself, but from his/her students.

               There are so much meaning of success. How I'm going to choose? What is my success? So far , my biggest success is not my result at all. Is me relation with my friends...

Help~

               T_T... SPM coming soon... I'm still very lazy leh... hehe... All my friends starting their study already... Heiz... Why there are so much problem for man? Sometimes, I'm lazy to settle the things, just leave the problem aside... But the problem still existence... It cause many problem for me. 

              So, I learn a things. When we cannot settle a  problem, we can put it aside. Calm down ourself until we can settle it intellect. Heiz, talking is easier than action.  

Control~~

                 That's not a easy thing to control. Control temper, control emotion or others. I hate it! Sometimes, we can't control ourself, so may be somebody will be hurt by us, but who can help me? I'm try to control myself when I'm in red eyes. But I'll feel unfair about it... That's not my wrong... Why I'm the one say sorry? That is not my wrong. Human, is not really perfect... There are some ugly things will be shown out easily...

                 For me, no one can I believe. May be I'm have not meet the person. But i believe that is very difficult. hehehe.........

~~Harry Potter~~

                Since Harry Potter was came, I'm waiting for my friends who can go to cinema with me!!!!! But they make me very disappointed to them...  T0T I'm wait and wait... but no one can go with me!!! Why?! 

               Every day and day... Teachers are remind us the trial exam and the SPM... Heiz... I'm nearly crumble now... Luckly, i still have some crazy friends beside me... hehe... Actually, I don't want leave them... Because the time can pass very fast... hehe but that is impossible ... heiz...

               Sometimes, I'll think about our future. What will happen after this? What can we do after this? T.T 

              My dear friends, I really don't want leave you all....... 

My Funny memories......

           This year is my last year to enjoy all the benefits as a student... Haha... Besides friends, some of the memories i really cannot forget all my life. I'm very happy before i leave my school i have join a drama competition and act as stepmother... Because my friends said i have the genes.... very suitable to act as stepmother... T.T

          I'm very joy when we are practice...... We practice for 2 months already... It's look like short but It is pass very fast... At the competition we felt anxious very much... Now, Show time! The competition was start... When i came to the stage.... Oh my god! let me dizzy......... Many students Were looked at me!!!!!

         Calm down, you can do it. I told myself...Finally, the show finished but i dont wan leave the stage!!! No! I'm belong to the stage!!!! haha o(∩_∩)o Aiyo, when the show finished must came down la... T.T 

        The result coming out! T.T(lose... n very disappointed ) Even though we are lose but we are happy...... And i believe that all of the actor and the workers are very enjoy it... hehe...

Cry With No Tear...

                This three weeks, I feel horrible... Why? the same thing, some of the people can understand easily, but some of them was nothing understand... The true is cruel... T_T Serious is that too difficult for human? Although was been scolded but still remain the original face... Arh... I really can't understand that. 

               I'm very understand that why I'm look like older than my friends, although we are same age... Because that is many things make me confused... T_T! My God! Please please and please...... Who can help me? Heiz.... 

Whatever, However, Forever?

                Last night was raining, a perfect raining, have no intermittently. Sometimes, we are very easy to feel regret. May be we will blame ourself at that moment. But after this, will us repeat the mistake again? I think yes.

              We really need more technique to communicate with our friends. Whatever how close you are i think sometimes, you will change countenance with each other. I really don't know what they think. But if i change my mind to another angle, why should i angry? Just because we have the different opinion?

            I had read a book. Pig Is Clever Than You. Why? Because pig will not classify the thing but human will. But the most funny is after classify the things, they will do the things also, even though, there is no  benefit.