Enjoyed happy time recently, that's the right way. Keep going! Fulfill my life with everything I can get ^^ Learning electronic piano and gu zheng... Music is amazing and always unpredictable.
Everyday is a good day. =)

回到单人房的世界，简单多了。。。 一个人的生活是那么的舒适那么的简单，要担心的事少得多了~ <3 p="p">

我家的姥爷很厉害!

我家的姥爷很厉害哦！发了封长长的信息给我捏~这可是连我那远在新加坡的姑姑都没有的说~~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 小姑铁定要闹了~~ XP

从小我就生活在一个幸福的家庭里~ 我家没有传统的重男轻女的思想，也没有严苛的要求；有的只是温暖和关爱。由于父母工作的关系，我几乎都是在两老的看顾下“十分茁壮”的成长也因此最了解我的莫过于两老了。婆婆是个很传统的女性无论什么事情她都可以调适也因为婆婆的传统，从小就被拉到菜市去亲近亲近乡村的传统。也因此，我是最了解婆婆上菜市的“步骤”。通常工作天母亲因为要上课因此无法到菜市去买菜，因此采买就落到婆婆的身上而且她也也很享受。除了可以跟市场的婆婆妈妈们哈拉之余更重要的是她喜爱玩个两手！！O(∩_∩)O哈哈~老家的旧市场有个烧肉档，老板娘除了应付顾客之余还开起了牌局让婆婆妈妈们玩个两手而婆婆是常客之一。搞笑的是每次她都把我赶到一边，不许我近距离观看偶尔还会事先砍包烧肉让我站在一旁拿着吃（如此看来我现在的体型也是拜婆婆所赐！！）。爸爸虽然我怕学坏，但是也只是口头上说说~也许他相信婆婆会有分寸吧~听说，婆婆曾今还因此而上过警察车呢~~不过就是被吓吓而已啦~~

七岁那年我们举家搬迁到一个新建的花园区，就当时的经济而言算是不错了~~婆婆当然跟着我们搬啦~~可是固执的公公以要守着他的钓鱼用具之类的借口拒绝跟我们同住，宁愿自己一人住在老家。。。其实我觉得这不是真正的理由，只是公公不愿多说我也不问而已。公公是个典型的敦厚老实人，在以前就算他已经成家立室就算他已育有七个小孩也还是把每月所得全数上缴给他母亲也就是我的太婆。太婆是个曾今活在封建时代的女性也因此有非常严重的偏心，太婆对于公公这个大儿子没有什么好的对待。一昧的打压是我唯一听过的对待方式，公公有烟瘾因此常常需要向太婆拿钱买烟当时的烟一支大约是一毛还是两毛上下，总之公公买烟是一支支买而叔公们（公公的弟弟们）买烟是一包包的买。太婆的恐怖在那时候是村子里出了名的，打媳妇更是常有的事而那媳妇是我最最爱的婆婆。在我听到这故事的时候第一感觉是不能接受以及怨恨，好强的我不容许我的家人尤其是我最最爱的家人被欺负；一度我选择不与太婆交谈。姑姑们察觉我的极端分别的为我上课告诉我婆婆的曾经的话，“不管怎样，她都是你们的长辈；再怎么不对孝敬是应该的”。我真的很想知道到地婆婆是如何做到那么大肚量。要是我肯定给她闹个翻天！但回头想想，人总是要学会保护自己要在逆境中生存；也许是经历过苦日子所以太婆才会这么的霸道。事已至此，要追究或怨恨也容不得了；甚至，只会让人再度感受会当时的无奈和伤害。不过我相信，婆婆不会再轮回了。如此心地善良的她应该功德圆满常伴佛音身边了吧~~

八岁的我无法让婆婆以我为荣。但是二十岁的我要及时让公公以我为荣！请婆婆眷顾我的愿望，让公公长寿让我现有的家人都来参加我的大学毕业典礼！！

是什么造就今天不服输的我？很早前就发现自己有一种输不起的性格因此把自己弄的强悍像只刺猬~~喜欢做些与其他人不一样的东西，就为了让自己有所价值。加油加油↖(^ω^)↗

Surgeon Bong Dal Hee

Have this movie for few times, but I really cannot forget the feel of being challenged, excited and happiness from the movie. As a doctor, they need to face a lot of challenges and difficulties that normal people need not to face with. They need to experience hundred or thousand times sadness compare with us, meanwhile they also experience hundred and thousand times of happiness when the patient get cure. While we are looking at the surface or the outsider of a doctor, we admire them as they can higher salary and placing at higher working level than the others. However, it is not easy and it is not everyone can handle the stresses and deal with their psychological and physical limitations. I'm sad as I didn't have the ability to service in hospital, meanwhile I wonder whether I can stand straight in front of those challenges.

I had been fell down for twice, but thanks god I manage to get back myself. In own opinion, I choose to on my sadness and weakness once a while rather than just keep pressing it back to my deep heart. As it is totally go against with natural. Human were created with emotions, if we just keep hide our emotions and refuse to face it I think that will have nothing different between human and robot. Hence, I am appreciate what I had experienced.

Someone said I am now mature than before, didn't get sad easily just because of some people, didn't get mad easily, manage to handle my emotions and ways I'm looking to the world is now more mature than before. Thank you, for that. Growing, is a long life process that everyone must gone through. I am happy that I am in the way. Meanwhile I feel sad and sorry for those who think they are mature but actually it was just a lie, I say so is because what had happen or is happening of the person is just like a circumstance, who didn't learn from the lesson nor even evaluate their own self. I think they are going to keep repeat the same thing until they can really understand the truth. This is life, no one can tell you until you experience it and understand it then only you know the true mean.

The Genting

I had visited to Genting from 9 of October until 11 of Oct~~ Overall, out of Casino, and the outdoor theme park Genting have nothing besides enjoy the weather there. We were almost freeze in the night, the mist was very thick at night as well as before and after the rain~ I felt like I am actually in a Winter!

During the first day, we gotta departed from home early in the morning as we need arrive Bidor before 8am~   It was took around 2 hours from Bidor to Genting... We were facing some problems when we check-in as we were not using our name to book, so... But, it didn't make our journey came difficult~ It was fixed with some financial penalty~ XP  As we knew before, meals in Genting are... ...  We ordered some Hainanese meals there~~ Hmm~~ with a cup of "teh" and also the taxes, each of us need to spend RM20 just for this meal~

Planning for First day was exploring~ We were walking around the area or wherever we can went to... 

However, we had suffered our leg hence we decided to take monorail to have a round of the indoor of first world and also the theme park~

Here's the pretty who went to Genting with me ^^

Eiffel Tower in Genting, I will visit the one in Paris somehow a day!!

We planned to play! But we didn't in the end as the water is very very dirty... Both of us were having history of skin sensitive, therefore... :'(

Too sad to say, it is under repairing~ haha~~

First World Hotel under the mist~ Actually we just spend RM 68 for 2 night ^^

The Genting Hotel~

Mist! mist!mist!!

We backed to hotel with zero fatigue~ lol~~ and the dinner for night was cup noodles!! The necessary in Genting!! haha~~ Budget line~ lolz~

Second day, we are now ready for the excitement!!

Lot of devices are under repairing... Not the suitable time... But we still manage to play the spinner and roller coaster!! I had scream out the highest voice during the 20th years of my life~ haha~~

Besides that, the amazing thing was I was invited by an England magician to assist him for a magic show! It was really a nice experience ^^

Last day was bored, as we had went to everywhere... After the breakfast, we were actually have no place to go for... Walked in no way... Lolz~ I had went through to 看相~ Lolz... Overall, okok la~~ XP But what the master said were quite true...hehe~ 

End of the Genting trip... Now is time for my MUET~ hohohoho~~

I ❤ myself !!

我很爱我自己，所以对自己想要的我从不拒绝~ 但不至于放纵啦~~ 所以我身体力行，开始了古筝之旅！我给了自己很有意义的二十岁生日，第一次的古筝课就是在我二十岁的第一天！ 感觉太棒了！那兴奋、心情和满足绝非笔墨或是言语所能形容~ 虽说还没有属于自己的一架古筝但是终有一天会让我弹拨着自己的乐器奏着欣赏的歌曲！从对自己许下的诺言到实现、进行、越过阻碍、进而如愿以偿~ 那种成就多让人骄傲~ 诺言，并不局限于大小，大致国家、世界；小至品尝食物或是享受美好一天。只要得到想要，一切都变得美好~

二十岁的礼物，谢谢死党~ 送了一只表~~ 我的朋友都很贴心，了解我的为人~ 与其送我摆饰，他们更明白送些实际的更符合我的性格~ 因为本人就是个懒得收拾的人~O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 所以咯！谢啦，亲爱滴~~

生日卡上，这家伙还不忘提醒我已踏入二十岁~~ 好啦，我是又“长”一岁啦~ 谁不年年长？O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 期待咱俩九号的云顶之旅哦！！

生日快乐

我不知道我在等什么，只知道我等不到我心底最渴望的~ 很可笑，连我自己都不懂得想要什么，又有谁懂？再也收不到的祝福，只能在过去缅怀~ 只是，为什么我们就连一丁点儿的友谊也都没有了？手机没响，心沉入海不再让自己存在任何的奢望了~

眼下，有了新的目标。为了更好的生活拼了！活了20 个年头，可说还是一事无成。不管如何，都要让自己活得精彩！

生日快乐！！

Words that I give to myself

I promised myself to learn 古筝， and I am now on the way~ Thanks to my family, they all are support me so much. The thing that I can do it to make myself master in it. ^^  I wish to get my own instrument, but it is really expensive.. Never mind, let me play on my own instrument with an excellent technique...

20 years old, it been sound far for me but it is now knocking my door and waiting for my answer. My life is just getting start! <3 and="and" cherish="cherish" have=")</p" i="i" life="life" my="my" what="what" with="with">
Kuen Hoong had sent me a Green Tea + Red Bean birthday cake last night through his sister. Touching...  :') Thanks to my friend... It is really my great honour to have friend like him. We care each other, but will not have much contact because it will not affect our relationship.

I am waiting for my Genting trip with Hui... It had been long time I went there... Going to enjoy all the things there... of course, out of those high spending~~ XP While I'm still zero income, I think it will be better to be low profile in money spending... =p 

Birthday of 2012

The scene of my previous birthday is still in my memory, we all are still friend and close enough. However, it won't happen again. I am sad with the losing of a relationship. God likes to play with me, and I accept and compel myself to leave it behind... 

Guys, I miss you all so much... :'( 

Nothing is fixed..

I had attended the wedding ceremony of my relative... I was surprise when knew she is going to marry, as she is having the image of iron women whose beliefs will be focus on her working performance rather than other. I remembered she said that she wishes to work in Singapore to experience the working environment there, to challenge herself there... However, planning and speaking can shape the reality. Anyway, congratulations to her and wish her all the best. She is the model for me, as she is brave enough and powerful enough in her life^^

Almost the end of my first degree year

Time pass like eyes blinking, I'm going to end my first degree year soon. Final is coming after 2 more papers,    feel good with it recently. ^^ Planning to enrich after the exam, god! I got a lot of thing to do!

I fall in love with this China TV Show, it is a stage for anyone who have a dream towards singing. This chinese girl, 郑虹 she sang the song someone like you. I feel touch when she is singing, not because of her story, her story can't make me touching and feel sad with but the way she sang, the way she transfer the song  in the stage was totally make me touch. She was like describing a story a sad story, not just as simple as sing. Even Adele, I can't get the same feeling.

Singing is a powerful action, it can affect people, direct the emotions... Out of the touching songs, there were some nice songs as well... Thanks to the show, i got to heard a lot of nice songs ^^

No matter what it is, I should always be prepared to face anything that I have to. This call life. We have to be responsible for our duty and our behavior. Yet, it is a lesson or challenge for me. I love the way so far, even I'm anomie sometimes but I manage to get back myself. Let go is not escape, but sometimes it is gain us a healthy life. People might not agree with your decisions but so what? If those decisions are not harm, why don't let yourself be happy? Since it is not the only way in life. Be open-minded, always tell yourself in that. Everything have both sides with them, be sure you can always get both sides of it.

Set lot of goals for myself, yes, myself... Without any teammate... I choose to enrich myself before I'm ready to in a team. That's me, a selfish person before I'm ready or gain enough abilities...

Lovely Life!

留守

死党都跑到老远去追求自己的未来了~ 而我，则留守大本营~ 无法言语的心情因为我是留下的那个~ 本来就不喜欢离别，可能因为泪泉太发达很想为了离别而哭可是似乎不太成熟的说~ 祝愿大家有足够的坚持！ Fighting！

大胆尝试

生平中的第一次~~ 人嘛，就是要尝试不同的东西才会知道什么适合自己什么不适合自己~~ 经过这一次的尝试，清楚的了解爱美的代价是多么的... ...~~ 即将来临的日子一定要尝试更多的东西啦~~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

24/8/12

这世界没有绝对的成与败，也没有绝对的悲与乐。调适心情，什么困难都不会是使你倒下的理由。看的透，没有事情可以让你的心情大起大落。一切随缘吧~ 合缘的，终究会聚在一起。 无缘的相聚也只是让彼此迁就得辛苦，何必？

既然想走，我也没有留的理由。只是，上了一课。不论何时何地，除了家人没有人是可以相信的。感恩，学习。不对你的人品作评价，因为那是你的生活方式。不造孽~ 明示暗示都已经出了，剩下的随缘吧~ 各有千秋，何必执着。取舍之间难免伤感但是过了就雨过天晴，彩虹终究会出现。

Why there are always some incidents happen before some events? I really hate that! What i allergic with? I really don't know~Gosh!! I thought the allergic just at my feet part but why it goes to my neck now? Please~~ Just let me off from this stuff!!

Out off allergic, when can I get off from those boyfriend stuff? I'm bored with this kind of questions~ Please leave me alone~~

Dato' Lee for me

The only Dato' Lee

He shows me what is Badminton, I enjoyed his match that is for skills, spirits and physical. Thanks for showing a spirit who named "never give up" and thanks for played such a nice game for Malaysia. I love Malaysia which have you as you did your best for everything.

You have a wonderful life and challenging life it's better than those who waste their life for nothing. You created the history, and we love to remember your history compare with ancient time ^^ No other can play such fantastic life as you! You did show me what called "Life". When you retired, you have a lot of meaningful memories to play for entire life then is time for you to enjoy your life without stress and attention of medals... ^^ Still, your story is still writing and YOU ARE THE BEST! Love you! I'm still front of tv to support you once you still in the match. <3 p="p">

没有人是完人所以当我们在指出别人缺点的时候永远不要忘记自己本身也包含着缺点。我和你的差别不大，但是如果你为此感到有很大的优越感的话请便。。。你可以一直说我的不好我无所谓，如果你说得出而我做过我承认。我也不会像你一般当个长舌妇。你说我不正常，那是被你弄的，因为你的complain! 凭什么要我迁就？你说我脸黑，我也不过是那么的几次有机会，麻烦你算算自己的。。。 如果真的那么多让你受不了，那就走吧。我不介意！但是我绝对不会走！先到的是我，没有理由让我让你。。

最后，妳会有报应的！

29/7/12

Chariots of Fire by Vangelis had bring a lot of shocks for me~ It's very make me excited while it played on the open ceremony of London Olympic 2012~ ^^ Of course, with Mr. Atkinson's show as well!! Olympic!! I like it!!

I got it finally!! The 8th book of the House of Night Series!! Like it so much~ <3

20/7/12

好啦~ 我是有那么一点点的粗鲁啦~ 可是拿东西怎么那么脆弱嘛~~ 一点点碰到就坏。。。 简直就是奸商啦~ T^T

好好哦， 每个人身边都有他可以寻求帮助~ hmm~ 太过分了~~ 谁可以帮我啊？我要我的“他”~ 生病有人陪去看医生，肚子饿有人自告奋勇帮忙~~ 之前看医生都是自己头重脚轻的驾着家里的宝贝往诊所的方向驶去~~ 毕竟长大了嘛~ 还是要学会自己照顾自己。。。 是最近身边太多感染体吗？唉~ 人啊。。。 真的太容易被影响了~~

强迫症

其实已经注意很久了~~ 怀疑自己有个啥强迫症~~ 生活上的细节，整理、摆放、使用、习惯了就不会想改变甚至要求一模一样~ 发现了不妥就一定要纠正否则就是个浑身的不自在~~ 天啊~~

刚在脸书PO了个状态~ 谁晓得手机屏幕太小，事后才发现原来打错了某些字~ 汗颜啊~ 很想改正可是无从入手~~天啊~ 又不想重PO就只好由它去了~ =(

2/7/12

Environment factors really can kill a person. Gosh~~ I started feel lonely, the desire to have someone beside come stronger and stronger, stay in my mind longer than before. I thought it was just a short visitation however it seem I have a long period need to deal with lonely.

Start from that "incident", i strongly wish there is someone beside me, support me, lend a shoulder to me when I need it. Hmm~ it seem mine haven't come yet... Alright, then i have to stay strong before i meet him. Whewww~~ I need a deep breath! Seriously need!

I thought I can't bear with lonely for too long, but I starting used to it. Feel like it already be part of me... Haha~ may be the next problems that I have to deal with is communication problems~~ XD

Dinner! After the indulgence of last night, i have to control myself~~ =(

haiz~~ Girl... always emotion come first~~ After the action regret come second~~ 

女生的错误

活到将近20岁，犯了一个女生不该犯的错误就是在晚上十点多一个人啃完那一晚的垃圾~~ 天啊~ 宅女的生活太不好受了~

但是我宁愿一个人享受寂寞的啃食也不愿意面对一班无法放下心房的“朋友”。 最多就接下来天天啃苹果那又如何？起码没有勾心斗角~

Pain

I felt pain not physically but psychologically. I thought i had run out from all of that, but i'm didn't? I have nothing to say, I am who I am. I treat friends with fully heart, but i get hurt again and again. I kept give up again and again when i felt tired and speechless. I thought i had give up enough about that, i started do not care who those who hurt me. Well, it seem not working, it just make me weak when things happen. I won't upset, it's your choice i don't blame, may be it's my problems as no one perfect right? It's my challenges to overcome it.

However, i starting feel disappoint. May be the mistake that i done was got to know you all. I'm tired with this, I had quit. In a peaceful way, may be this is only my thought. I'm not going to judge anything about your gang and your works. So please, stop related those stuff with me anymore! I'm tired and I had quit. Again, I starting feel regret with the heart that i had spent. Since, i can't take it back but i learnt something. No more truly talk, no more deep talk and no more real friendship if you wish?

I apologies if I hurt you but please don't do anything behind me. Face to me, not to my friends not to my family, but me. I prefer that.

p/s: Trust is not easy to build, it involved a lot of challenges and lies.

I'm sorry~~

I'm really really need to say sorry to my legs~~ I'm sorry for didn't take good care of you~~ How lucky am i?? wuwuwu~~ By the way, for my purse as well~~ Spend RM200+ for a "specialist"~~ Luckily, clever enough i'm back to hometown's clinic~ Same medicine get, better treatment however, it just cost me RM40+~ What the... =( How expensive is the name of "specialist"~~

  my pity leg~~  =(

ok, doctor did mentioned just warm water will do however, i really like the feeling of bacteria keeling by "hot" warm water... therefore, one of my leg comes red after the procedure~~ wahaha~~

流年不利

现在的我只想找个宣泄的管道，好好大哭一场、睡个好觉！在旧病复发的情况下已经够让我觉得好不沮丧了，还要面对一些只会吃却帮不上忙的人真的让人很气很气！进入到久违的房间却处处都是灰尘的时候更是只想把房间拆了！还要一进门就被只小强吓到，到处喷蚊油，把地板弄的油不拉几整个房间充满那杀虫剂的味道~~ 还有一堆不是自己的东西在哪里生灰尘！天啊！杀了我吧~~把个眼镜推到头顶方便刷牙，却掉下弄的全是牙膏！神啊！

原本只想发个帖吐完出来就没事，谁知道网线中断！好吧，发个信息给那机不离手的弟弟~ 天晓得，他就是没看到、没接到我的电话、信息！真的真的好想大哭一场！今年走的是什么狗屎运？！我真的真的好想大哭！心中一堆不满、怨气无处宣泄！！苦呀！

不要问我为什么、不要问我怎么样、我不知道！我只想把看不顺眼的统统都给拆了、丢了！明天！看完医生之后，我才不管什么时候的纪念册、什么时候的“心血来潮”！全丢了！！

真的是！@#￥%……&*）（*&……%￥！@#￥%……&*（）#￥%……&*（

沙漠玫瑰+二十岁的前症

   曾经读过那么形容女人的一句话，沙漠玫瑰~ 就字面上的意思，坚强、孤傲、逆境生存、当然，带刺儿~ 到目前为止依然希望自己具备沙漠玫瑰的特质。即使如此，造物者的仁慈还是把人类归为群居一族~ 生活上的挑战就是磨练，让我往沙漠玫瑰前进~

生活上还是随性点来得好，没回家的周末反而起了个大早，跑个步~ 一天的行程展开？拜托一个学生有什么行程？不就一堆的paper~ 天知道大学的生涯是个什么的样~

即使偶尔还是不能自己的在期望另一半的存在，但好在期望之后一片平静。年龄上的成长真的可以让人改变很多... 很多东西不再执着，随缘就好~ 哈哈~




接着即将到访的二十岁，发现自己在很多方面都有了不少的改变~ 从以前对穿着的不在乎、外貌的无所谓、保养的漠视； 到今天稍微的注意、开始关心的保养护肤以及近来对香水的在乎~ 好吧~ Body Shop 的 Dream 把我征服了，考虑（小会儿后）毅然把它带回了~ God knows what i think~~ 哈！

也许不久的将来得必须有份不错的工作在等我才行！当然，

前提： 我得要有不错的“厕纸” 才行！

Cross Junction of life~ 人生的十字路口

不知什么时候开始有了 “不同心情，做出不同的决定创造出不同的举动” 的顿悟~ 看过很多的书，听过很多的格言都是在表明，未来端看自己的选择。

不论是 J.K. Rowling手里的 Harry Potter, Stephenie Mayer 的 The Host, Twilight, 到 P.C. Cast & Kristin Cast 母女联手撰写的 House of Night Series, 都不停的再强调 “抉择” 的重要性。HP 中提及 Potter 并不是唯一符合预言的男孩，但是因为 Voldermort 的选择促使他自己本身的悲哀和Potter 的成长。

在The Host 中，外星人的侵入让人不认识自己我不是我，而你不是你~ 但是，任然有人可以战胜附在脑袋里的怪物，夺回自己的主控权。因为他们选择自我而非服从。在当事人的立场上，要反抗并不容易因为那是一场身心的战斗痛苦万分，然而却有人甘愿承受。服从并非坏事，起码不须受到折磨，但是往后的人生很可.悲. 因为他们忘却自我任由上苍所赐予的恩惠操控在别人手中。一切，取决于“抉择”。 Twilight 中的Bella亦是如此，即使吸血鬼Edward 出于天性渴望吸食她的血，但是她任然决定爱他并且为他踏上吸血鬼的旅程。Edward亦是如此，他希望他的爱可以保有正常人的生活免去不死的寂寞然而，即爱却不想长相厮守的抉择~

Casts 笔下的 Zoey Redbird 更不用说，虽然被标记为吸血鬼但黑夜女神亦是吸血鬼们的女神-妮克丝却赋予她们自由意识，并且被视为最高恩惠。不论你是否拥有感应，你的将来完全取决于你的抉择。

人生只是就是在不断的做出选择。没有人能够肯定当下所做的选择是正确的，但是很肯定只要你想以及坚持就算走了个大圈，你还是会回到你所选择的道路。这点，我坚信不疑。

I will prove that I deserve better~ No worries~~ Just do whatever you like~ Happy to say that my EQ is gonna higher and higher~ Thanks for you all~

Not for you not for him, but me ^^

Wake up early in the morning (i wonder is 7am consider early morning), jogging, breakfast, wash dirty shirts and... ... walk here and there on internet~ @@" again~~ I like this type of life style, but not stick to the lappie ^^ Healthy and meaningful?? Most important is i feel my life is enrich by lot of thing!

Oh yeah! Baby!! Keep on like this!! Not for you, just for me!

Good Day to all!!  =D

一星期的全纪录~

 大碗公！！麻辣麻辣的！！超下饭的说~~

 三文鱼~~极品呀呀呀~~

 每次到新加坡必吃的!! Mr.Bean pancake!!

 小姑的拌饭~ 比外边餐厅来的好吃多了！！

人生中的第一只香水~ Sasa 的 London Days~~      

 跟肥婆肥佬相聚的第一餐~~ hmm~ 就还有很大的进步空间~

  Tanjung Pagar 粿杂

  甜品： 肥婆点的香芋西米露~
专门跑到Bugis去品尝的呢~~

                                   我滴鲜奶炖蛋加红豆










一星期的收获说多不多，说少不少啦~~

救赎

经过一星期的沉淀，不论生理上心灵上都获得不少的救赎~ 感谢新加坡的菩萨们在我带着满脑子的迷茫和不知所措的时候为我打开一扇扇的大门~ 感恩❤ 两年多三年的时间说短不短，说长不长但足够让一个人改头换面~ 感恩，有这么一个机会❤

现在的我，没有多想~ 只有往前走！

好吧~ 清爽的头发换来了个鸡蛋脸~~ 行！就让鸡蛋脸变鹅蛋脸吧~ 咱们走着瞧！！(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……

First day in Singapore, i said goodbye with my long hair... The change of hair style! ^^

Think nothing but enjoying... I like the life now~ study study study, then holidays~ need not an expensive trip... Just have a short break from the environment that i stay for a long period... I like there are always some changes in my surrounding... It gives me something different lesson to refer to, some different stories to heard and sometimes, experiences as well. ^^ Need not some special one to be with me, just anyone can join~ anytime, anywhere...

A short travel can always me different, can give me different emotion, cause different thinking of me... Sometimes, i'm enjoy the gather with my friends after a period we seperate... Lot of topics to share and listen to.. For sure, if they willing to share with me...

I'm mature, but not enough... Therefore, i like to stay with family, cause they can share their experiences with me, refer to their experiences i'm going to prevent some mistakes which can prevent.. ^^

Whatever happen, accept, forgive and let it be... Happy and Enjoy the life...

P/S: Whenever, Whever, back to the one i know after the “emo”~

A new spectacles show the views in a different angles to me ^^  Come to the next, may be i'm gonna make some changes with my hair~~ Extremly short? curly? who knows~~ Just wait...

Exam is gonna end soon~ However, there is one more paper before i can say goodbye to my sem 2~ Before that, i was always sad to have sem 4 in foundation life and feel lonely to have the different way with my friends (who consider as senior now)... Something changed me, i'm nt sure what's that, but i'm sure that i had already accept my 'new' coursemates~ I'm so sorry to say that, but it's true... Thanks for all the helpings guys~ =)

Holiday!! Still the same, SG always my choice to go for~~ I like the 'city' feels~ May be it's because i'm not working there but travel there~ hehe~

I found my way, however i need a strong economic support for the way~~ XP Never mind, i can get my own way as well... Hehe~ Somehow a day ^^

At last, i'm still remain what i have... What can i do to reduce the pain? Who can lend me a hand while i'm almost submerged?

容易地迷失

上了Degree 才发觉原来以为已经定下的目标其实很不明确。为什么选读这个系？兴趣？不全然~ 环境，原因之一。自身的原因呢？茫然~ 有的时候，不是不想一条路直直去而是不知道要往哪个方向去。一而再再而三的迷失让我觉得厌烦，渐渐地习惯不再提起。。。 然而这问题来到面前的时候，我还能镇定自若吗？我不想杞人忧天何况还有两年的路要走~

如果没有外在的因素，我会选这门科系吗？

这一直是我自问的问题。。。我理想的，一一被视为自私的行为。。。 我追求的，是不负责任的行为。。。 然而，我今日努力地坚持的继续就是为了那些。。。

这些挑战，压得我不知所措。原来，我背负的也许会是我未来的绊脚石。。。 也许吧~ 长女的命运。。。 该认命吗？该死的！ 不是一个！是3+1~ 我不希望这些沉重的压力出现在弟妹的身上，也许接受是唯一的道路。也不希望父母的退休生涯被那些不自爱的人困在着~ 最后落下的也该有人担起~

再说要另一半接受那么特别的一面，似乎很自私。。。还是不要来的好吧？免得耽误了别人。。。

Forced to change~~

There are a lot of changes in my world, to be in-group, i have to make some changes with myself as well... No more look down just because of body size! I'm so sorry to say that i want to make myself have a wonderful world... I want to be what i want, not because 'fashion'~ Just be good to myself! ❤

去你的！明明大家都有责任为什么人家可以过得那么轻松自在？东西丢一丢屁股拍一拍跑得不见人影。平时不尽责就算了！什么东西都事不关己，能帮最少就帮最少！去你的！什么东西就是嘴巴张开就对了！实行的永远是我们！过往她疼你们多过我们老了就把她丢掉！什么人到底？！虚情假意！假情假意！

我为什么要不去理？我为什么要不计较？我的心没有那么宽宏大量！

漫无目的的让音乐自己畅游与我的空间。。 两句歌词将已经不知飞向哪里的心绪牵回。。。
滚滚红尘里谁又种下了爱的蛊，茫茫人海中谁又喝下了爱的毒。。。
这该死的感情好像怕我的世界不够乱似地一遍又一遍的来拜访。。。 欺负单身、渴爱却又惧怕的大门~ 缘分没到，就算有亦不会长久谁不懂？天晓得这是平衡心理的句子~~ 人心这么容易控制的话警察、辅导根本就不需要了啦~~

最近三三两两的更新，更是让本小姐有想把面子书关掉的冲动。。。却又迟疑于潇洒与怀念之间。。。我说，你们就不能好好共处吗？我说，你们就不能低调嘛？？ ~~~~(>_<)~~~~  孤家寡人，日子也可以很精彩的说~~

一天看完两本夜之屋~ 一晚上三小时就啃完了一本~~只能说，为什么考试的教科书不那么的有致命的吸引力呢？天啊！ 快崩溃了！！考试来了！！

The way i am~ ❤

Heard from friend... One more marriage is coming soon. Congratulations...

What's going on with the society nowadays? People tend to get marry so early... Pregnant? Love? Sorry, this cannot consider as reasoon for me to get marry that early. I even haven't enjoy my life. I don't hope being fix by a family...

Nothing is hundred percent confirm, i cant said that young people who get marry early in their life cannot have a perfect marrage, but in fact, i can't deny it will cause side effect as well. God bless you with the way you choose.

I love the way i am so far... Although i'm not good in my academic, i done nothing, i can't feed myself, i can't satisfy myself with what i have now. However, from my view, at least i'm happy in my way, and it is truely my OWN way! Without any 'luxury'~~ Just love the way i am!

要嘛就不会买，一买就是大出血~~ 辛苦您的钱包了~~ 谢谢您，亲~❤

无可否认，女人天生血液里就有购物的基因~~半天的时间，买了四件衣服、一双鞋子~~ 天啊！！罪过罪过~~

full of satisfaction~~

Emo... suddenly~~ want to do revision~ force myself but get nthg~ alright, i give up~~ sit in front of laptop, on movie, watch to the screen without 'see' anything~ Simply want to have some noise~ XP

等夏天等秋天等下个季节
要等到月亮变迁你才会回到我身边
要不要再见面没办法还是想念
忽然想看你的脸熟悉的感觉
不牵手也可以漫步风霜雨雪
不能相见也要朝思暮年
只想让你知道我真的很好
爱一生恋一世我也会等你到老
只想让你知道放不下也忘不了
你的笑你的好是我温暖的依靠


绕梁三日的不止是歌词、旋律，而是那故事~
曾今希望可以有段轰轰烈烈的感情，可是轰轰烈烈的背后却是泪珠的灌溉。
人一生一世所求的各所不同，不同阶段不同追求~
此时此刻的心情是： 就算一个人，也能体会别人两个人的体会~

刚开始的大计划~ 我！要！坚！持！ 每天的20分钟~ 要坚持~~

从远处遥望校园，感觉就是不一样~

夕阳西下，似终点亦似起点~

超好吃的番薯~~爱它爱它~

这个世界其实很奇怪。。。不，应该说人很奇怪。其实不论群体还是个别生活对人类来说都不会是个问题。但偏偏却会有人际关系的问题存在、有误会的存在、有争执的存在。。。。。。 很多东西，看开了其实没什么大不了。人一生最多来到七八十岁，能带走的可以说是绝无仅有就连自己拿臭皮囊也无法带走~那么，何必让皮肤受罪？每天为它抹上五颜六色的眼影、腮红、口红、粉底、脸霜等等等等~ 反正再美的一面都会有剥落的一天，与其让自己为那天的到来伤心倒不如让皮肤开开心心信心松松健健康康的随着岁月而改变？生平的浓妆抹艳不过就是人的要求~

欺骗，或许是人生中最常有的是~ 善意的谎言/恶意的谎言 不都是谎言？谁又能全然无谎言？活得自在，活得开心、心安理得~ 夫复何求？不管在什么阶段，什么年龄都会有不同的领悟~ 感恩过往所经历过的一切，让我有所领悟、学习~

presentation 的准备~~ 各位，辛苦了！！ 一切都过去了~~

用着包裹里的东西记录着我的点点滴滴~

超爱吃的核桃面包~~不知不觉中可以把一整粒吃完~~

久违的自拍~~胖到不行了~ ><"

家乡的炎热和宿舍的凉意成正比~ ~ 又是一星期的到来，又是一连串的挑战！战士们，冲吧！