回报？讥讽？

我知道不能要求对等的回报，既然你要那么做的话我也会奉陪到底。多余的我不会再做，也没必要受你的气。你可以自私，难道我不可以？别傻了，只是要不要的问题。你心情好，就必须忍受你的讥讽；心情不好，就要面对你的关公脸。我应该受的吗？很多时候，你已经碰到我的底线了。

坏话？你有这么多坏话让我说吗？不是每个人都可以跟着你想象中的画面走的。为什么出来读书的人，还是会这么幼稚呢？你要我怎样去面对一个连换个东西都计较的人？

快乐

虽然知道不可能，但是总希望可以永远留在快乐的时候。咋看之下，似乎没有可以留住时间的方法，但是。。。 也许，在最快乐的时候停下，似乎不错。这故事影响我不深，但是那一段却不断在脑中盘旋。在最快乐的时候，我选择死亡，那么，我的记忆里永远都是快乐的回忆。即使对身边的人来说，这很自私，但是当我不开心的时候，这桥段，不断重复在脑中响起。尤其是最近。。。

失败了，应该检讨的。但是讨厌自己的懦弱。明明是自己的失误，为什么要别人去承担？

梦一场 - Olivia Ong

犯贱？高估？

是我自己犯贱？还是高估了自己？ 看到你和她的照片，还是会一阵的难过。 明明，已经不再有可能有交集，明明已经把我删除，明明已经警戒自己不要再碰，还是会很犯贱的开你的户口，看你的照片。

我高估了自己，以为，你对我来说已经没什么，但其实原来不是。我的心还是会痛。是伤口化脓，在溃烂吗？还是我太没耐性了？撒上的一把盐，让我痛得无法呼吸。

的确，满犯贱的。明明已经淡忘，为什么要想起？为什么要这么多手？为什么就不能再忍？为什么要去看？

到现在，还是会觉得不公平！明明付出了这么多，可是得到的却是遗弃。我无法接受。可以公平一点吗？你会觉得那时候很幼稚，但是你不知道，那时候对我来说，是一段很不可思议的经历。也许对你来说，我什么也不是，但是你对我来说是曾今。

就算，再喜欢一个人，都没有到当时的那种感觉。 LL，会注意到他，也是因为他有点你的影子。。。 敢于发言。 可是，人一生的际遇，很难预测得了。他不会是我那杯茶。。。我明了。

我应该把自己约束得再紧一点！我要让你后悔！你这样对待我是你一生中最大的错误！ 我不会再对你有欲哭无泪的感觉！到目前你是唯一一个没有血缘关系却又让我哭泣的人！我发誓！再也不会！我甚至要你为此而付出代价！化脓的伤口，再痛，也要撒把盐下去！盐，能让我早日康复。。。

Is it very difficult?

I just looking for cooperation, why it seem so difficult to do so? This is our job! Is OUR! not me! Why only i care the job? Where's yours responsibilities? Is there everyone have no responsibilities at all? I'm just asking your free time to arrange shift for you, you just have to send for me! Is it very difficult? Is it very difficult for you?! Please be responsible for yourself and your work!

Sometime, i feel disappoint and speechless. Sometime, i feel angry with myself! Why i want be so stupid?! Why i will face those problems? Just because i'm stupid!

What are you doing?

After having a long chat and a meal of KFC, read the news about earthquake which was happen in Japan. My heart was drop at the moment. We can't deny, frequent of the happen of earthquake is increase. Is the ending of the earth coming? Who will know when it comes?

What are you doing, while the earthquake happen? Keep nagging with your friends for the unfair that you meet? Talking about the unbalances that you feel? Who even feel sad or shame for self? Others are busy to save their life while you are just nagging with some small things?

We do not know how to appreciate everything which happen besides us. We can't see good things more clearly than bad things. Have you even ask why? Why we are just focus at those negative side when things happen? May be this already become our habit. We tend to look at negative side automatically than positive side? why? Is pessimistic already being used to label us? Why we want choose pessimistic but not optimistic? why why why?

May be there are too many bad things happen until we already feel normal with it? What's going on with the earth? What's going on with the society? There are lot of things that we have to learn. Today, 'Appreciate' is the one that remind me...

I love my family, I love my friends and I love myself.

对等的回报？

施恩莫望报。是一句名言。可是，有谁可以做到？付出的，似乎永远都拿不回对等的回报。我要的不是贪婪的关心，就算只是口头上的一句问候，也心满意足。可是，似乎好难。 路遥知马力日久见人心，说得对，相处时间越久，越来发现，不是每个人都可与之亲密。我想要的东西永远都在改变，在不停寻找的同时也发现了许许多多不同的道路。有好有坏，不管选择哪一边，只希望自己快乐。