庆幸。。。 恨。。。

该庆幸吗？原来我对你只剩下恨。对身在远方几千万公里的你，我只想说谢谢你激发我的恨意。。。你放心，我一定一定过的很好。。。 我所谓的很好，不论是在物质享受还是心灵享受都一定要是最好的！总有一天，我会比你成功！比她成功！我要让你愧疚！不是每个人都有资格、有能耐去利用人！我！要！你！后！悔！

Lost!!

Kanasai kanasai kanasai!!!!! You are the one who brought me in, and now you are the one who make me feel disappointed! Who do you want me to do? I really wonder, by now for me, you just like a schizophrenia patient! You are now very terrible horrible! I don't hope to argue with you somehow a day. Please be appreciate, if not i really don't know how to communicate and get along with you. God bless, hope that day have no relate with us forever.

..My way..

Everyone have their own expectation for their future, same goes with me. I though that my life will only change become better once i get my certificate, i'm only can become the one who admire once i success. Success for me before is study well, get good result, keep on improve my self through books and so on. However, everything had change start from i know you. You change my life such dramatically, all my plans are changed without mention. I had tried my best to escape from your group, but failed. May be you are right... What i invest is only time and energy... But that's only what you observe... You can observe from outside, but not inside, and i think you don't even know there's investment from my deeply heart...

Grateful... for those chances that you provide. Appreciate, for every valueable moment that spended together with you all. No matter how's my life in the future, appreciate everything i have now. Keep on moving forward together with you all and working hard together with you all for the future that all of us desire...

Thanks for let me have a chance get to know you all, thanks for accept me as one of your team mate, thanks for teaching me so much, thanks for everything. Amitabha...

不一样的生日

学空手道半年多了，热情其实在逐渐下滑当中。原以为，就是这样的十九岁因为有一班不一样的人变得十九岁的生日，不再一样。。。 感恩。。。 千言万语尽在不言中。。。

生日愿望

可以许下个任性，不道德的愿望吗？十八岁的最后一天，让人难过~~ 十九岁的第一天，出现任性的想法。不管未来如何，十九岁，是全新的一年。决定了，没有后悔的余地。十九岁的第一天，有你与我一起共度，于愿足矣。感恩~

手中的信息写了又写，删了又删就是迟迟无法按下发送键。不断的反问自己的所作所为是否正确？中秋节了，希望陪伴在你身旁与你共度这人月亮团圆的时刻的认识我。但是很明白，你的身旁并没有我的位置。即便如此，依然诚心希望你在这浪漫美丽的一天安康，快乐。愿你我的明天，有共同度过的明天。 今年的中秋节愿望是。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 感恩

抱歉~

也许，真的很让你们失望了~也许，是我不够成熟~ 也许，是我不够坚强~ 但是真的很对不起让你们失望了。。。 听到你的心声后，更是让我有愧疚感。。。

没错，人不该轻言放弃。但是，我有我的立场，我的经历和你的经历不同。你已经经历过了，而我就只是刚刚开始而已。原谅我，之前对你们说过的话所照成的伤害。。。当我把一切问题都说出来了以后，我发现我不知道该怎么样面对你们，因为我觉得自己很幼稚很幼稚~谢谢你们的忍耐和包容还愿意聆听~ 最大的问题在我本身吧~我一直都不认为自己是温室里的花朵。。。一直以来都认为自己很坚强很能耐苦。。。 很可笑，原来我不是。

这就是成长吧。。。这就是你们一直说的过程吧~原谅我现在才能体会你们的辛苦。