Self-abased/ Self confidence

To: my 'self-abased', thank you for your visiting but i think it's almost your time to leave. I'm very appreciate for you visit, without that may be i'm still lying on my bed dreaming some unrealistic things. However, the afflication that cause by you are too much which make me can't afford anymore... I miss your attending, but i hope to mention your leaving... Once again, thanks for your visiting....

To: my 'confidence', i miss you so much. How are you recently? I hope you are rocovered and willing back to me soon. Without you present, my life is only black and white. My presentation is lifeless, my assignment is soulless. I miss the time you be with me, i miss the time we fight together. Please do come back, i miss you...

不知不觉中

在不知不觉中，我已坠入你们的陷阱无法自拔。。。 人，不可能每时每刻都呆在一起。总有一天要享受孤单的滋味。其实很多很多的路都已经是前车可鉴了,只是我们不知道而已。人，总希望自己是特别的，总希望自己能被别人永远的记着提起。。。

也许我正在走着你所走过的路程,可走的人不一样结果也就会有所不同。原来一道目光的专注力不会很久。。。 她用错了词。。。 不是取代，而是专注力转移了。你所要的，是一批生力军！对于我的'lembik'我很抱歉。。。我不能是一个‘打手’，但是我可以是一个‘帮手’。。。

因为你的一句话“误会”，我忍。因为你的一句“不要想”，我吞下了一星期的积怨。。。值得吗？我曾问过自己。。。 也许安静就是福吧。。。

庆幸。。。 恨。。。

该庆幸吗？原来我对你只剩下恨。对身在远方几千万公里的你，我只想说谢谢你激发我的恨意。。。你放心，我一定一定过的很好。。。 我所谓的很好，不论是在物质享受还是心灵享受都一定要是最好的！总有一天，我会比你成功！比她成功！我要让你愧疚！不是每个人都有资格、有能耐去利用人！我！要！你！后！悔！

Lost!!

Kanasai kanasai kanasai!!!!! You are the one who brought me in, and now you are the one who make me feel disappointed! Who do you want me to do? I really wonder, by now for me, you just like a schizophrenia patient! You are now very terrible horrible! I don't hope to argue with you somehow a day. Please be appreciate, if not i really don't know how to communicate and get along with you. God bless, hope that day have no relate with us forever.

..My way..

Everyone have their own expectation for their future, same goes with me. I though that my life will only change become better once i get my certificate, i'm only can become the one who admire once i success. Success for me before is study well, get good result, keep on improve my self through books and so on. However, everything had change start from i know you. You change my life such dramatically, all my plans are changed without mention. I had tried my best to escape from your group, but failed. May be you are right... What i invest is only time and energy... But that's only what you observe... You can observe from outside, but not inside, and i think you don't even know there's investment from my deeply heart...

Grateful... for those chances that you provide. Appreciate, for every valueable moment that spended together with you all. No matter how's my life in the future, appreciate everything i have now. Keep on moving forward together with you all and working hard together with you all for the future that all of us desire...

Thanks for let me have a chance get to know you all, thanks for accept me as one of your team mate, thanks for teaching me so much, thanks for everything. Amitabha...

不一样的生日

学空手道半年多了，热情其实在逐渐下滑当中。原以为，就是这样的十九岁因为有一班不一样的人变得十九岁的生日，不再一样。。。 感恩。。。 千言万语尽在不言中。。。

生日愿望

可以许下个任性，不道德的愿望吗？十八岁的最后一天，让人难过~~ 十九岁的第一天，出现任性的想法。不管未来如何，十九岁，是全新的一年。决定了，没有后悔的余地。十九岁的第一天，有你与我一起共度，于愿足矣。感恩~