Have to act~~ :'(

Seem i can't go out like before already~ haiz~ Have to lie.... Let them see i'm really a good girl~~~ lolx~ i'm not actor la~~ I had reject my friend's invitation~ CRY CRY CRY~~~

Hmm... ...

Since i'm finish my SPM, my life look meaningless~ haiz~ playing, sleeping, eating, and nothing~ ><

If can choose, i won't stay home to face some monsters~ >< Some of my friends were know that my house have a lot of 'abnormal' person.. hmm~ may be i shouldn't say like that, should respect them... But, i really can't bear it anymore... ... I can't grumble about those things~ Even though, just grumble~ YoY... ...

I'll scold by my dad... ... he'll said that i'm lazy, and like to count those things with them... ...But he don't know that sometimes, i really can't bear it~ Since the school life was start, but just i'm going to stay home, i have to cook lunch for them everyday... Although i'm not going to eat and i can't say no~ Well, sometime, i'm try to persuade myself... But it didn't work for long time~~

I'm still looking for some help, which can help me to bear for all the unbearable things~

~~ No Comment~~

There're a lot of things make me no comment at all~ lolz~ Start from my result came out, the feel is following me until now~ Speechless~ Not enough for maktab, not enough for this not enough for that, then my dad start nag~ \YoY/ Please, i'm also don't want like that la~

Waiting for the result of maktab, finally, that's arrive, but... ... What! Delay! What's the government done? Just a small things also want delay it? How i'm going to continue my things? Gosh~ lolz~ want cry cry cry!!!

Confuse~

I hate confuse to something~ The feel make me want shock ad~ At the start, i'm straight want go foundation, but nw~ thx for my parent, f6~ again~ i hate bm~ study at f6, sure hv to use bm~ i hate! but f6 can save money~~ haiz~

~To My Friends~

Please pay attention for your attitude, when we are chatting, you always like to show me your bad temper, wherever we are~ I'm trying to control myself, but that's not mean i can't rebut you... I just don't want to broke our relation... You always talking about others, but how about you? Have you ever think about yourself... You are always give comment about others, but you never look at yourself... As friend, i'm had already done my liability... I'm had lend my hand to you, when you're asking for help. I'm also gave you console, when you're sad... I had spend my time to you, when you're confusing... But you are still show me like friend is nothing to you... Please don't forget, as friend, i have already my liability, we just friend, that's not mean i can help you to settle all your problem... Do you know? You like to show your angry face without reason... See, I'm not the worm at your body! I don't know why you angry for! Please don't turn your angry to me from that guys who make you angry! You like to talk nonsense about me and angry with me when i'm refuse to help you... Why, do you know all the things are unfair to me??

Angry~

Angry angry and angry to someone... I'm just remind her, is time to get her motor driving lesson, is it wrong? I just don't want she too reliant... She have to learn independent but not asking for help when she face problem... But she still can disprove my word! Gosh! All i tell to her is the true. Why she can't understand? Now a day, there are no one that we can believe at all. Future, she will go out for her study, how family help her when she is outside? I really don't know how to communicate with her anymore~

无奈~

我很清楚自己，是个三心两意的人。任何事如果要我做决定，我会想太多。考车，使我目前非常想要做的事。当父母表示说，不需要太早领取驾照时，的却有点落寞，可是他们说的不无道理。没错，我的却不需要太早领取。所以，我已经收拾好心情。等待自己有能力的时候才去考的。。。 看着身边的朋友，一个一个的领取驾照，虽然会有点闷。可是也一直劝自己说无所谓，我也会有，只是迟了点~然往往就是这样。当看到希望时，会无比的快乐，仿佛到了天堂。可是当希望破灭时，就会从天堂掉回地面般，伤心~ 也许是自己看不开吧~很多东西，是可有可无的。就像佛学营时，一位师傅说的，执着让自己不开心，让身边的人不开心。既然如此为什么要去执着？虽然明白，可是要做到真的好难。。。