久违

最后的一个学期了～～祈祷祈祷顺顺利利，万事化吉！

说好的台湾，泡到太平洋去了～

算了，当作为硕士课程存钱吧～心疼心疼钱包吧～

下来的一学期感觉像打仗一样，不过

兵来将挡，水来土掩！管他呢！哈～

这学期又是新一轮的人际挑战，

好吧，我要学会从中学习。。。

看着吧，不管发生什么事

跌倒了，拍拍身上的泥土

甩甩伤口上上药

擦干眼泪

继续

往前！

我相信，

每件事，都要讲机缘巧合～

时机不对，

天不利，

时不宜，

地不利，

人不合。

什么都是假～

好吧，就让自己反个省呗～

晚安囖～～

时隔两个月之后的更新～

不知道在忙什么的 “忙”～～ 无穷无尽的忙～～

短短一星期的假期，当然小小的放松～ 

跟家人去了趟 Pulau Pangkor

海边是这么多次以来最脏的一次～ 

好失望～ 

还好要回的一天碰到某位以售卖及呈现巨型泡泡的商人在玩他的杰作～～ 哈哈～

还很友好的分享哦～

现场看到的绝对比照片来的震撼的多～～

假期转眼就过～～ 回到现实世界～

上班+一个月的保姆工作～～ 早8晚7～ 忙忙忙～

忙着写课程计划，周记，和总结～

终于在这星期把我的实习生涯画上句点～ 谢天谢地！！

这个月将会是最后一个月，要跟小恶魔们掰掰了～ 哈哈～

老师姐姐会时常想念你们的！！

完了实习，将往新加坡跑一跑～ 

给即将打仗的自己松一松～

Sunny and cloudy

My intern started for almost 2 months, I'm glad that finally used to it and feel good with my working environment. Although some kids are really representing monster but they are really cute! I'm so sorry for sometimes I need cane to stop them on doing something hurtful as well as scolding but I do love them very much.

I like to stay in an environment which full with kids and chit-chatting with their families about their funny behavior. ^^

this big size boy boy is a very "mummy" boy~~

the crying princess is finally used to the study environment. Another cuties when stop crying and asking for mummy~

my little "boy friend" the one i care the most! Be happy Jun Ting!

Good in camera sense!

She is always has good appetite!

The youngest boy is learning to make himself a kaya bread! 

Cuties, and the famous star! Oscar!!

SHOW TIME!

Their laugh motivate me to give more love and patient for them!

Hi! you see me?

It's Oscar show time! Come on, Oscar baby!!
Ps: he really makes my day! Love you Oscar!

even kids also want to 捞生！

I knew that will be not so easy to take care an elder, but the reality is very cruel and tells that no matter what readies and preparations been done will still useless. Great grandma fell down yesterday and can't manage her daily activities even toileting. For the first time, I learn how to clean an elder and move her from chair to chair. Even I remind myself for times, it's my duty to do my filial but when those smells come to me still can't handle. 

I gotta learn on doing this, I have to let go all my "clean" when I have to take care someone. I gotta force myself in doing so, who knows somehow a day I gotta take care of somebody... 

In life, the oldest stage is the most pity stage... It will be amazing if an elder still manage to take care themselves... but if they can't that will be a sad... Just imagine when you can't move and need to rely on others with every activities... I really cannot bear with it and can't imagine if I'm in that stage... 

Life, is cruel and real... Learn to accept them and solve the problems caused by..

Madness

I'm so sorry but still i need to voice out my feeling on your arrangement. Why you so like to make arrangement on my works? meanwhile, it's just some home works  like my dinner or whatever.

once I agree to do for you that mean I WILL! May be just some adjustment on my schedule, but still I will get the work done need not any worries from you. So, please keep quite when the works had assigned to me. I'm sorry for the madness, but that also means you had touch my limits. So please, Learn to let go!

I tried to avoid argue with you and obey as I can, but there are ways people used. How come you so like to force people follow in your way? ya, may be some kind problems are coming from you. Thanks god! Now I can understand how people feel about that. Yeup, that's really sucks!

Completed of a paragraph in life.

2014!

Here comes a total new year! Viewing 2013, I had learnt a lot of things and bring a lot of means for me. I tasted leaving and abandoned, felt the loneliness and helpless; meanwhile I gained a lot from my families and friends. I'm grateful and appreciate with all of them and accepted those challenges even I didn't overcome it nicely. Here end those negatives in 2013 and for sure there are some in 2014, it's part of life it provide colour in my life. 

2 Jan 2014, here goes my internship start in a kindergarten. I can preview some challenges there and some chances to learn. Just do it! 

2013!

Before I'm ready for my intern, I did something people so called "rich", "energetic", "crazy"... but it's worth for me... I visited Johor for twice within weeks... Finally I met my little cute "映雪" who been over "caring"... but still lovely. =) 

 

ps: 宝宝，妳真的好可爱！姨姨下次来找妳和妹妹玩哦～～ 不过不要再“买”啦～～

跟老同的半天～

My holiday plan was just pass by half after first visitation, then SG for Christmas with 3 friends (lovely, trustworthy and sharing ) and continue in Johor Bahru again with days of shopping, walking and a concert! What a nice holiday and plan that I ever have! Really thanks to my families tolerate me to leave home for a long time and my friends who help me a lot! ^^ 

The Christmas in Vivo City!

the model of the day!

the camera pretty

and her love or assistant 

the pattern queen ^^

Here start our JB walk!

Maco! Niice~

The garden @ Just want coffee~
Tofu cheese cake and Tiramisu~

Mocha with thick coffee smell!

PS: 下次我们来个一日游吧 ^^

How lucky am I～ 亲爱的，我多么幸运～

你的愛值得信賴 你的心靠在身邊
只要你在我就有許多夢想 只要你在我就有更多力量
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 就從這一刻起和你分享所有感覺
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 就從這一刻起和你分享真心的感覺
你的愛沒有保留 你的心獻給了我 只要你在我就有更多理想
與你同在就好像擁抱天堂
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你 親愛的我多麼盼望
每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺
你的愛沒有保留 你的心獻給了我只要你在我就有更多理想
與你同在就好像擁抱天堂
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 每一天在這裡和你分享家的感覺

小胖的这首歌深深的让我有了很大的感触～ 步进大学的最后一年很多东西似乎瞬间变得不是我所能应付的程度。压力，自我的要求一度让我很辛苦，一度让我有放弃的念头。。。 在某些夜晚数不尽的泪珠在毫无预警的情况下从眼眶渗出。 我不想哭，不想让自己软弱。。更加没有想到学习也能把我打倒。 内心深处的恐惧因为泪珠的滑落慢慢的被牵引了出来～ 

我害怕，我并不如自己所希望的那样坚强；
我害怕，我的失败让我面对不了我自己的期许；
我害怕，失败让我再度体会嘲笑与讥讽；
我害怕，失败让我拥有我曾今不屑的想法，得过且过，毫无原则的生存。“有钱就是本事”
我害怕，我无法对身边的人交代。

当一切一切的害怕浮现在脑海中的时候，那感受很闷；胸口很痛。。。呼吸不了。。。 真的想过，消失或许是件好事/是解脱。

曾今的我一度想要放弃一切。。。

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多么幸运，我遇见今生贵人；我的家人：父母，姑母们。。。他（她）们的支持让我用于承担身为一个学生的的一切压力，让我在无数的挑战中站住脚一次又一次。。虽然不是亮眼战绩但是我能存活。。。

今天，我多么的幸运还有一班师友在身边～ 
当我无法面对自己负面情绪的时候多么的幸运我还有三两知己邀喝咖啡，吃饭，运动，说笑～
当我把自己一整天关在宿舍里头时多么的幸运我还有位良师与我吃饭聊天吃甜品～ 

我是一个羞于得说爱的人，我还放不开。。。 但是我的幸运激励我让我想把我对他（她）们的爱说出口。。

我爱你（妳）！谢谢你（妳）们出现在我的人生中！

在我一次次陷入困境的时候陪着我，关心着我～

对你（妳）们的爱不会因为岁月的洗礼而褪色不会因为环境的变化而改变。。。

感恩，有你（妳）们同在！

P/S: 在看帖子的妳，我爱妳！

酸

听了很多，看了很多，读了很多～ 然而却没有一次经历过，算什么？ 

强势。。。 如果你成长在与我相同的环境中，你是否会与我一样？ 

白眼，奚落，嘲弄，责骂，鞭打。。。没有强势就不会有今天的感觉你明白多少？每个人都会有自己的难与苦。。很多人都上岸了，我的码头似乎遥遥无期不知远在何处。。。

很多时候，很多事情我不曾提过不管对谁。。。守在心里，自己品尝那苦。。。Americano, Long Black 的苦提醒着那不堪回首的过去。。执着，放不了丢不去～

你在哪儿？

我撑不下去了～

看着幸福而哭泣，是一种多么痛的滋味？不是嫉妒，而是酸。。。

我把自己练得再好，再能干，再多才多艺也就更加彰显我的孤独。。。月牙的背后是什么？

吸引，其实我很不喜欢它。。。因为自己的不足所以时常很容易的就被吸引。。。受够了！

今夜，是多愁善感的夜晚～

今夜，是被心酸填满腔的时刻～

傻的我愿意为值得的人付出，却迎得不想要的委屈无奈。。。还有心酸。