好痛～好痛～

为什么要把伤疤揭开呢？

好痛！真的好痛！

时光倒流吧～

当作一切都没发生过～

也许心底深处还是希望求助的～

但是，好痛！一碰就痛～

我不想了，退缩了～

算了～

好意我领了，谢谢～

也许我托付错人了，不是对方的问题是我自己的问题。

我快疯了！

如果把心剜了可以不痛的话那多好？

我快被自己逼疯了！

我到底想怎么样？

我快被连自己都唾弃的负面情绪给逼疯了！

能不能把它给关了？

我真的好辛苦！

我不应该再暴露自己的心了，我要相信我会没事的！

我会的！！！！！

锁上了～

好吧，自己的嘴巴太多了。。。 跟朋友的过分分享造就今天让自己尴尬的局面。

我很好，真的很好。。

不用担心。

发觉到，自己的过度分享其实让朋友有了不必要的担心。

我很不喜欢，真的很不喜欢这样。。。

也许，维持现状是最好的方法。

讨厌自己的嘴巴了啦！！

也许为了不让自己在处于尴尬的氛围下，

我应该好好管理我跟朋友的分享。

应该锁上的。

久违

最后的一个学期了～～祈祷祈祷顺顺利利，万事化吉！

说好的台湾，泡到太平洋去了～

算了，当作为硕士课程存钱吧～心疼心疼钱包吧～

下来的一学期感觉像打仗一样，不过

兵来将挡，水来土掩！管他呢！哈～

这学期又是新一轮的人际挑战，

好吧，我要学会从中学习。。。

看着吧，不管发生什么事

跌倒了，拍拍身上的泥土

甩甩伤口上上药

擦干眼泪

继续

往前！

我相信，

每件事，都要讲机缘巧合～

时机不对，

天不利，

时不宜，

地不利，

人不合。

什么都是假～

好吧，就让自己反个省呗～

晚安囖～～

时隔两个月之后的更新～

不知道在忙什么的 “忙”～～ 无穷无尽的忙～～

短短一星期的假期，当然小小的放松～ 

跟家人去了趟 Pulau Pangkor

海边是这么多次以来最脏的一次～ 

好失望～ 

还好要回的一天碰到某位以售卖及呈现巨型泡泡的商人在玩他的杰作～～ 哈哈～

还很友好的分享哦～

现场看到的绝对比照片来的震撼的多～～

假期转眼就过～～ 回到现实世界～

上班+一个月的保姆工作～～ 早8晚7～ 忙忙忙～

忙着写课程计划，周记，和总结～

终于在这星期把我的实习生涯画上句点～ 谢天谢地！！

这个月将会是最后一个月，要跟小恶魔们掰掰了～ 哈哈～

老师姐姐会时常想念你们的！！

完了实习，将往新加坡跑一跑～ 

给即将打仗的自己松一松～

Sunny and cloudy

My intern started for almost 2 months, I'm glad that finally used to it and feel good with my working environment. Although some kids are really representing monster but they are really cute! I'm so sorry for sometimes I need cane to stop them on doing something hurtful as well as scolding but I do love them very much.

I like to stay in an environment which full with kids and chit-chatting with their families about their funny behavior. ^^

this big size boy boy is a very "mummy" boy~~

the crying princess is finally used to the study environment. Another cuties when stop crying and asking for mummy~

my little "boy friend" the one i care the most! Be happy Jun Ting!

Good in camera sense!

She is always has good appetite!

The youngest boy is learning to make himself a kaya bread! 

Cuties, and the famous star! Oscar!!

SHOW TIME!

Their laugh motivate me to give more love and patient for them!

Hi! you see me?

It's Oscar show time! Come on, Oscar baby!!
Ps: he really makes my day! Love you Oscar!

even kids also want to 捞生！

I knew that will be not so easy to take care an elder, but the reality is very cruel and tells that no matter what readies and preparations been done will still useless. Great grandma fell down yesterday and can't manage her daily activities even toileting. For the first time, I learn how to clean an elder and move her from chair to chair. Even I remind myself for times, it's my duty to do my filial but when those smells come to me still can't handle. 

I gotta learn on doing this, I have to let go all my "clean" when I have to take care someone. I gotta force myself in doing so, who knows somehow a day I gotta take care of somebody... 

In life, the oldest stage is the most pity stage... It will be amazing if an elder still manage to take care themselves... but if they can't that will be a sad... Just imagine when you can't move and need to rely on others with every activities... I really cannot bear with it and can't imagine if I'm in that stage... 

Life, is cruel and real... Learn to accept them and solve the problems caused by..

Madness

I'm so sorry but still i need to voice out my feeling on your arrangement. Why you so like to make arrangement on my works? meanwhile, it's just some home works  like my dinner or whatever.

once I agree to do for you that mean I WILL! May be just some adjustment on my schedule, but still I will get the work done need not any worries from you. So, please keep quite when the works had assigned to me. I'm sorry for the madness, but that also means you had touch my limits. So please, Learn to let go!

I tried to avoid argue with you and obey as I can, but there are ways people used. How come you so like to force people follow in your way? ya, may be some kind problems are coming from you. Thanks god! Now I can understand how people feel about that. Yeup, that's really sucks!

Completed of a paragraph in life.

2014!

Here comes a total new year! Viewing 2013, I had learnt a lot of things and bring a lot of means for me. I tasted leaving and abandoned, felt the loneliness and helpless; meanwhile I gained a lot from my families and friends. I'm grateful and appreciate with all of them and accepted those challenges even I didn't overcome it nicely. Here end those negatives in 2013 and for sure there are some in 2014, it's part of life it provide colour in my life. 

2 Jan 2014, here goes my internship start in a kindergarten. I can preview some challenges there and some chances to learn. Just do it! 

2013!

Before I'm ready for my intern, I did something people so called "rich", "energetic", "crazy"... but it's worth for me... I visited Johor for twice within weeks... Finally I met my little cute "映雪" who been over "caring"... but still lovely. =) 

 

ps: 宝宝，妳真的好可爱！姨姨下次来找妳和妹妹玩哦～～ 不过不要再“买”啦～～

跟老同的半天～

My holiday plan was just pass by half after first visitation, then SG for Christmas with 3 friends (lovely, trustworthy and sharing ) and continue in Johor Bahru again with days of shopping, walking and a concert! What a nice holiday and plan that I ever have! Really thanks to my families tolerate me to leave home for a long time and my friends who help me a lot! ^^ 

The Christmas in Vivo City!

the model of the day!

the camera pretty

and her love or assistant 

the pattern queen ^^

Here start our JB walk!

Maco! Niice~

The garden @ Just want coffee~
Tofu cheese cake and Tiramisu~

Mocha with thick coffee smell!

PS: 下次我们来个一日游吧 ^^