话说最近宿舍的网线是问题一大堆的。。 可怜我的电脑~~

Early of the trimester had already make me confuse and scare... How can I pass through until the exams? 6 subjects in this semester, Pengajian Malaysia, Adolescent Psychology, Group Counselling, Statistical 2, Research method and technique, and Psychological testing and measurement. God! Those 3 testing & measure subject can really kill me seriously... My brain is totally cannot function when I am facing those assignment. I really need some helps...

There are a lot of things happen for this 2 weeks, make me moody sometimes. Luckily, I have family behind. My mother might not the one who can communicate with me with the best, but she must the one who know me the most. It seems like we both really have 心电感应. Every time when I need someone to talk, she will call me before I give them a call... Do really appreciate for that. After some story telling, feel better now. How well to have a family like them... =)

好久不见

从考试期间开始就一直没有再po 文了。不为什么就是觉得似乎没有什么需要上传的。不知不觉就来到了2013，总结来说2012 教会了我很多很多东西，看透了很多很多的事。感恩过往遇到的人事物让我有了成长，长了见识。 2012年间我真正体验了何谓一个人的生活一个人的思想。已经发生的事情我不曾后悔，也不会憎恨； 其实反而觉得好笑不是自己而是别人。很多时候为了保护自己；人，很少会先自我检讨、反省，这乃人之常情。

反反复复的听到了很多过往社团的消息好的坏的、美得丑的，不胜其数。没有评价，有的是学习；有坏就有好，有美就有丑是在正常不过的事。祝福大家越爬越高。

大学的住宿生活回归到一个人，日子一样的过。全然的私人空间，相对的少了练习口才的机会~哈哈~ 不管再恶劣的环境总会有它的生存方式，更何况是在一个完全适合读书的环境呢？

感恩师父的教诲，一段时间的冥想让心境达到不曾到过的平静世界。心胸逐渐放宽，其实很多时候事情都是没什么大不了的。加上吸引力法则的实践~~呵呵~~ 造就了心宽“体胖”的我~

古筝的学习也一直都很顺利，在努力的帮助下先进也完成了俩阶段。左右手的配搭也慢慢的熟悉了起来。

很多时候脑子里总是会浮现出很多负面的画面、信息、事件一时半刻免不了的陷了陷，但事后都是一笑置之。没啥大事儿！很多话很想说，很多想法很想大声的发表可回想，这似乎只让我变得不堪。即已经没有任何关系就啥也不说了呗，听到了所谓的“原谅论”就当听歌呗~~

总结！感恩2012.

Enjoyed happy time recently, that's the right way. Keep going! Fulfill my life with everything I can get ^^ Learning electronic piano and gu zheng... Music is amazing and always unpredictable.
Everyday is a good day. =)

回到单人房的世界，简单多了。。。 一个人的生活是那么的舒适那么的简单，要担心的事少得多了~ <3 p="p">

我家的姥爷很厉害!

我家的姥爷很厉害哦！发了封长长的信息给我捏~这可是连我那远在新加坡的姑姑都没有的说~~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 小姑铁定要闹了~~ XP

从小我就生活在一个幸福的家庭里~ 我家没有传统的重男轻女的思想，也没有严苛的要求；有的只是温暖和关爱。由于父母工作的关系，我几乎都是在两老的看顾下“十分茁壮”的成长也因此最了解我的莫过于两老了。婆婆是个很传统的女性无论什么事情她都可以调适也因为婆婆的传统，从小就被拉到菜市去亲近亲近乡村的传统。也因此，我是最了解婆婆上菜市的“步骤”。通常工作天母亲因为要上课因此无法到菜市去买菜，因此采买就落到婆婆的身上而且她也也很享受。除了可以跟市场的婆婆妈妈们哈拉之余更重要的是她喜爱玩个两手！！O(∩_∩)O哈哈~老家的旧市场有个烧肉档，老板娘除了应付顾客之余还开起了牌局让婆婆妈妈们玩个两手而婆婆是常客之一。搞笑的是每次她都把我赶到一边，不许我近距离观看偶尔还会事先砍包烧肉让我站在一旁拿着吃（如此看来我现在的体型也是拜婆婆所赐！！）。爸爸虽然我怕学坏，但是也只是口头上说说~也许他相信婆婆会有分寸吧~听说，婆婆曾今还因此而上过警察车呢~~不过就是被吓吓而已啦~~

七岁那年我们举家搬迁到一个新建的花园区，就当时的经济而言算是不错了~~婆婆当然跟着我们搬啦~~可是固执的公公以要守着他的钓鱼用具之类的借口拒绝跟我们同住，宁愿自己一人住在老家。。。其实我觉得这不是真正的理由，只是公公不愿多说我也不问而已。公公是个典型的敦厚老实人，在以前就算他已经成家立室就算他已育有七个小孩也还是把每月所得全数上缴给他母亲也就是我的太婆。太婆是个曾今活在封建时代的女性也因此有非常严重的偏心，太婆对于公公这个大儿子没有什么好的对待。一昧的打压是我唯一听过的对待方式，公公有烟瘾因此常常需要向太婆拿钱买烟当时的烟一支大约是一毛还是两毛上下，总之公公买烟是一支支买而叔公们（公公的弟弟们）买烟是一包包的买。太婆的恐怖在那时候是村子里出了名的，打媳妇更是常有的事而那媳妇是我最最爱的婆婆。在我听到这故事的时候第一感觉是不能接受以及怨恨，好强的我不容许我的家人尤其是我最最爱的家人被欺负；一度我选择不与太婆交谈。姑姑们察觉我的极端分别的为我上课告诉我婆婆的曾经的话，“不管怎样，她都是你们的长辈；再怎么不对孝敬是应该的”。我真的很想知道到地婆婆是如何做到那么大肚量。要是我肯定给她闹个翻天！但回头想想，人总是要学会保护自己要在逆境中生存；也许是经历过苦日子所以太婆才会这么的霸道。事已至此，要追究或怨恨也容不得了；甚至，只会让人再度感受会当时的无奈和伤害。不过我相信，婆婆不会再轮回了。如此心地善良的她应该功德圆满常伴佛音身边了吧~~

八岁的我无法让婆婆以我为荣。但是二十岁的我要及时让公公以我为荣！请婆婆眷顾我的愿望，让公公长寿让我现有的家人都来参加我的大学毕业典礼！！

是什么造就今天不服输的我？很早前就发现自己有一种输不起的性格因此把自己弄的强悍像只刺猬~~喜欢做些与其他人不一样的东西，就为了让自己有所价值。加油加油↖(^ω^)↗

Surgeon Bong Dal Hee

Have this movie for few times, but I really cannot forget the feel of being challenged, excited and happiness from the movie. As a doctor, they need to face a lot of challenges and difficulties that normal people need not to face with. They need to experience hundred or thousand times sadness compare with us, meanwhile they also experience hundred and thousand times of happiness when the patient get cure. While we are looking at the surface or the outsider of a doctor, we admire them as they can higher salary and placing at higher working level than the others. However, it is not easy and it is not everyone can handle the stresses and deal with their psychological and physical limitations. I'm sad as I didn't have the ability to service in hospital, meanwhile I wonder whether I can stand straight in front of those challenges.

I had been fell down for twice, but thanks god I manage to get back myself. In own opinion, I choose to on my sadness and weakness once a while rather than just keep pressing it back to my deep heart. As it is totally go against with natural. Human were created with emotions, if we just keep hide our emotions and refuse to face it I think that will have nothing different between human and robot. Hence, I am appreciate what I had experienced.

Someone said I am now mature than before, didn't get sad easily just because of some people, didn't get mad easily, manage to handle my emotions and ways I'm looking to the world is now more mature than before. Thank you, for that. Growing, is a long life process that everyone must gone through. I am happy that I am in the way. Meanwhile I feel sad and sorry for those who think they are mature but actually it was just a lie, I say so is because what had happen or is happening of the person is just like a circumstance, who didn't learn from the lesson nor even evaluate their own self. I think they are going to keep repeat the same thing until they can really understand the truth. This is life, no one can tell you until you experience it and understand it then only you know the true mean.